It is slowly becoming harder and harder for me to walk through the front doors at work and not feel like a ‘has-been’.

And even though every day that I walk through those doors varies in terms of class structure, clientele, and potential workouts… I find myself talking about the same things over and over again… I find myself telling the same stories about how I used to travel, how I used to train, and about how I used to fight professionally.

Having said that… I am trying to stay away from medicating myself and freeing my heart and soul from the numbness that I have inflicted upon them…. I am trying my best to stay on track and concentrating on the gains that I have experienced in my personal and physical life as of late.  

I started working with a physiotherapist a few weeks ago and have noticed an incredible change in both my physical and mental state. I am able to move my legs and lower back in ways that I couldn’t have imagined three months ago… I am able to train lightly, teach class, and live a reasonably normal life. And even though every now and then I experience a lapse in my physical condition and mental judgment… over all, I am in a better place.

Tomorrow morning before I have to punch in at work I am going to go meet with a specialist at the Pain Management and Solution Center in Kingston. My physiotherapist and I are confident that I will be able to return to professional competition by continuing treatment and getting a few cortisone injections.

I am ready to be healthy again.