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Mission Statement, Chapter 41. |
I can honestly say that there is no man on this earth that if locked in a cage with me could instill fear in my heart, nor is there any situation or circumstance that could possibly deter me from living my life the way I have chosen to do so.
Having said that, I have no dellusions about who I am. I know I am not invinceable. In fact, I know I am ridiculously far from it. But... as terrifying as the thought of risking it all and being broken is, the highs of escaping relatively unscathed, or even just getting out alive is irresistable.
This life is a gamble.
It is no secret that at times I am either my strongest ally or my own worst enemy. My mission is to find a balance between the never ending construction of self-confidence and the ever-approaching demolition ball that is embodied by my negative thoughts, feelings, and occasional sense of insecurity.
I have been fortunate enough to have come in contact with and become close to people who have understood this disposition of mine. People who were willing and able to take me on as a student, a roommate, and a friend. People who helped guide me through the peaks and valleys that accompany my personality. People I will love until I am ripped from this lifetime.
I have been discouraged, outcasted, and insulted. I have been beaten, bruised, but not broken... not yet. I have tested myself against some of the toughest men and not faltered. My truest test greets me every morning as I wake and rests my head on a pillow of restless thoughts and possible scenarios each night.
The only man that I have ever allowed myself to be victimized by is myself. Having said that... I am completely comfortable with this existance, this is the only thing I have ever known, this man has made me who I am today.
The thought of exploring new ventures and chartering unknown territory with those who care to join me on this mission is motivating for me.
Last week I started training for my upcoming adventure race... I am not sure how my progession is going in comparison to those who I will be competing against, but I am confident that I am on track.
I also started a new weight routine and am looking forward to becoming an entirely different animal when I make my return to MMA...
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Posted:
May 26, 2009 at 10:24 AM
By:
Ian Dawe
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