Luckily Brittany and I were able to make it out to Milton, Ontario (which is just under an hour away from our downtown Toronto apartment) and do some thinking, hiking, and rock climbing at the Kelso Conservation Area earlier on this week.

We started our climb on the 'road to ruin' and slowly worked our way along the cliffs edge towards the caves atop the hiking trails. We stopped every now and then to reflect and take some pictures.

With over 397 hectares of hiking trails, rock faces, and forestry... there is no shortage of land to explore at Kelso.

Britt sitting at the edge of a cliff. 

Late at night I hear the trees, they're singing with the dead, overhead...

"I'm coming I'm coming" 

If you look closely you can see that I am in fact a camouflage man 

After a couple of hours we finally found the cave we had been looking for. 

Britt at the lowest point of the cave we could reach... looking further down. 

The drop-off Britt was looking at.

If ever there was someone to keep me at home, it would be you.

I've got my indignation, but I'm pure in all my thoughts, I'm alive...

It is often said that there are specific moments in our lives that have the potential to either 'make' or 'break' us... certain scenarios that present us with the opportunity to define our true selves or self destruct.

Athletically, I have been fortunate enough to demonstrate my capability of rising to the occasion in all of my bouts. However, from a personal perspective, I feel that I have let myself and those around me down.

It would be foolish for me to believe that this hasn't affected my professional life as well.

I will not deny the fact that over the past year I have taken great strides towards becoming the man I have always aspired to be. However, I also know that there have been periods in which I have veered off course and lost sight of who that man is... sometimes these episodes lasted days, sometimes weeks, and sometimes they dragged on for months.  

I will get there.

As I was reading over some of the blogs that I have written and never posted, something dawned on me. I noticed that the majority of these entries were not finished... and if they were, made little to no sense at all.

These are the chapters of my life that have not been put to rest. Fragmented sentences that reflect the unresolved issues that have slowly worked their way to the surface.

Although I am not sure of how I should approach these obstacles, or if approaching them will equate to personal resolution or pain... I know of a place that once offered me fulfillment and peace, a place that frequents my dreams and waking thoughts.

I know where I need to go.

I would like to thank you all for your continued support and belief in me. I have received countless letters expressing words of wisdom and encouragement. You have sent me your pictures, cards, money, and well wishes. Without you, I would not be in the position I am.

This is something I need to tackle on my own.

I am coming.