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Eight Weeks, Chapter 27.
Training camps are designed to test ones physical limitations and push beyond them. Countless hours of complete exhaustion are spent in an attempt to conquer the obstacles that wait beyond the gym doors daily. Bumps, bruises, aches and pains are common place, excuses are not.

Every second, minute, session, hour, day, and week is a battle within itself.

I have eight weeks left.

As familiar as I have become with training camps, there is always something unusual, something unplanned for, something unexpected, something special that must be confronted in order to progress. As much as I despise these unique hurdles, I  cherish them as well.

I have no desire to be who or where I once was.....

This is not a come-back,  this is me.

Posted: January 29, 2009 at 05:50 PM
By: Ian Dawe
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My Toronto, Chapter 26.

For eight and a half months I allowed this city determine the way in which I lived my life. 


It was easier for me to be a victim of circumstance than a citizen of Toronto. By embracing the notion that I was a merely the 'product' of an alien environment and not an active player in my own destiny I had denied myself from myself. I equated my solitude to the lack of compassion I saw in the city, yet failed to acknowledge the fact that I had internalized a number of these traits myself.


The thorn in my side had become a terrible cancer... I was lost. 


I now accept the fact that regardless of my surroundings, I am responsible for my own happiness or suffering. The choices I make along this path I forge are mine, and mine alone. 


Just as iron shapes iron, negativity breeds negativity. No longer will I focus on the negative aspects of this city and internalize them. I will use the unfavourable attitudes of others to guide myself in the right direction. 


I have found serenity in the men and women who practice tai-chi in Grange Park, anonymity in the crowded streets of Kensington market, comfort in the sushi bars on Baldwin Street, and focus in the gyms I frequent. 


Here are a few pictures of the Toronto I have grown attached to. 

 

The futon, my home/office. 

 

BALDWIN STREET. 

 

Arctic Rolls and Tempura Avacado Hand Roll.

 

All you can eat deliciousness.

 

 

Reserved for cheat days only - banana tempura with vanilla ice cream.

 

The gym.

 

Heading home from the gym. 

 

Miniature golf, 82 style. 

Posted: January 14, 2009 at 04:49 PM
By: Ian Dawe
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2008 Triumphs and Tragedy, Chapter 25.
In the past twelve months I have been hoisted in the air in front of thousands of screaming fans, stood atop the red rocks in Las Vegas, and learned the true meaning of kinship.

I have also been kicked out of the gym for reeking of alcohol, tasted the agony of defeat, and lost the truest friend I have ever known.

Although I full heartedly believe that I have learned as much from the highs as I did the lows in 2008, the latter part of this year has been marred by the memories of days I never lived.

Something that will never happen again.

Just as I had started to accept the fact that I was not going to be the same person or fighter I was in the past, something changed.

For the first time in my professional career, I had been called out.

On March 28th I will enter the cage to battle a man I have already faced. A man who’s heart I have nothing but respect for. A man who has relocated to train with my old friends and team mates to prepare for this task.

Being known as a fighter who demonstrates more determination than skill in the ring, I feel this has been done in an attempt to extinguish my one stronghold, my heart.

I have been singled out after a six month lay off and a loss in order to advance another mans career. Denying this would be foolish.

Although I stepped away from the sport for a short period of time, this break was necessary for me to grow as a person and acknowledge what truly matters.

One thing is for certain, I am no mans stepping stone.

My demons were laid to rest in 2008.

I fight for so much more than I ever have before.

Posted: January 1, 2009 at 04:23 AM
By: Ian Dawe
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